I've spent the last two months walking. I leave all blogworthy thoughts in the driveway with the stroller.
Gestational diabetes is my pregnancy cross. This time, I've controlled it by sheer force of will: no fruit, milk, starch or sugar, plus walking 3 miles after every meal. Oh, and keeping up with the other 3 kids.
I've worn myself out. I should be sharing about some spiritual fruit that's sustained me during this fast, but honestly, I've been trudging along, feeling lonely.
Catch 22: my numbers have been so excellent that the doctor doubted that I have gestational diabetes at all. "Maybe you should just stop checking your sugar for a few weeks."
"Hello!" I retorted in tears. "The reason they look so good is that I'm dying over here!"
She called this morning with the results of my 1-hour tolerance test: so high that I don't need to take the 3-hour version. It was a sweet moment of I told you so. But now, I must push away the kids' Halloween bucket and head to the park.
Maybe tomorrow I can tell you how all this walking has made me the neighborhood poster child for Catholics having one kid more than will fit in the stroller.
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My prayers for you, GDM is truly a cross!
ReplyDeleteI can just picture the poster child! When my three oldest were little, I had one umbrella stroller. The baby was in the sling, the toddler was in the stroller and I dragged the oldest around as he clung to my leg because he didn't want to walk. Someone driving past saw me, took pity on me, quickly scooted home and came back and gave me a double stroller that they no longer needed! Humility is a virtue and can also be a good way to get free stuff! :)
Oh man! Hang in there! In your times of discouragement, remember that the best spiritual growth is usually accomplished without any warm fuzzy feelings. You will look back on these times and realize the amazing work that the Lord is working within you through your sacrifice and loneliness.
ReplyDeleteAnd seriously, I have to say "Wow!" at the steps you have taken to combat your g.d. (pun intended).
If it helps at all to know it, I will tell you that I too have been in that lonely position. The only thing that kept me going was the thought that Jesus knows that I am not a good friend to Him unless He is my only friend at the time. Sad thing to say about myself!
ReplyDeleteI also had a dog along with the kids stuffed in the stroller ;)
He embraces you with so much love -- right where you are just at this very moment...feel that embrace!
Also, have you read My Family and Other Animals? You need a well written laugh!
Meredith, I must've been in a cave all this time. I had no idea you were expecting! Congrats! I had trouble with my blood sugar during my last three pregnancies and ate what they told me to and it wasn't fun! At least your hard work is paying off. Good for you!
ReplyDeleteMan, my memory ain't worth nuthin' these days. I did know you were pregnant back in August, but couldn't remember 3 months later!
ReplyDeleteI hope it's not terrible of me to admit that your last line made me LOL.
ReplyDeleteAfter the baby comes, I'm totally bringing YOU donuts!